Its been a week since my whirlwind tour back to the east coast. I have settled into some semblance of a routine here in San Diego, a routine that has thus far been pretty productive but a bit depressing. Engagement in the social is a very important piece of my personality and here my options in San Diego are limited to a small and sometimes ephemeral RLS community. There are some incredibly sweet people here, and Michael and Holen have been great to spend time with daily, but I am so used to being spoiled by a diversity of people and experience in NYC, that this is taking some serious getting used. to. The other part of the struggle I am having is that I am having to learn to create an independent work schedule for myself. My entire working life has comprised of some sort of structure that has been created outside of myself. Making this structure happen on my own has made me slightly anxious, as I am always trying to find a way to feel like I am doing all that I need to be doing in a moment. The simple act of going to work allows one to have a seperation between relaxation and productivity. Here, I am either constantly working, or fully disconnected from any sort of work with a vague sense of unease creeping at the edges of my mind.
Yet, as I mentioned, I have gotten a lot done, in particular with writing projects. Oh, the reference to the marathon is getting through this strech of time till Thanksgiving. I'll be headed up to The Bay Area then to spend the holiday weekend with Karin and her sisters fam.
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